I am in a rut. I have no excitement in my life. I guess the "honeymoon" is over already. The last 3 days I have been blah, even the energy has been lost. Maybe that is some of the reason I am in a rut, I am not getting anything done like I was. I feel no accomplishment.
In reading other blogs I am thinking I am cycling in the PAWS. I had told my DH that this was a possibility and he had said at the time "Not you, you are too head strong not to get it all done at once". I know he was joking and being supportive, and I was truly hoping he was right but unfortunately he wasn't.
My irritability is through the roof. No one can do any right in my eyes and I feel horrible about that. I see what I am doing but can't seem to stop it. I have been taking vitamins trying to stay on top of it but I must need more.
It does not help that I am watching TV shows and it shows how people are sober for years and still struggle every day with it. Is this it? Is this what sober life is? I feel like it is Groundshogs Day. I want more. I want excitement and fulfillment.
I will make it through and hopefully I will snap out of it quickly. If I don't like myself how is anyone going to like me or put up with me.
Heres to tomorrow...!!!
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