Wow 30 days!!! (sorry playing catch up with this new blog, the official 30 days was on 4/20)
Anyways..... 30 FrEAKinG DAYS!!!! I would never thought I could make it this far. Ya I have been sober before for 9 months 3 times in my life but when you are growing eyeballs and ears it kind of gives you strength to do what is best for the baby :).
What have I discovered in the last 30 days???
- I feel AMAZING!!!!! I have so much more energy which has been an issue for me for some time now. I was always complaining how tired I was and life was so boring because I had no energy like those crazy people that can do so much in a day. Well I am that crazy person. Yes I do get tired of course but I feel 100% better.
- My bowel movements are so much better also. I know TMI but at the young age of 40 I had to have a colonoscopy to make sure all was well down in the bottom end. In my heart I knew it was the alcohol but of course I just wanted a pill to fix it so I continue the path I was traveling. But during this procedure I also discovered I had precancerous esophagus (Barrett's Disease). Well I knew it was from drinking but of course I would not admit it to anyone. It was just from reflux which is common for most normal people right? ON that note, the reflux is so much better. I thought of going off my medication but figure I will wait until the next scope to make sure I am on the mend. Cancer is nothing to mess with.
- The Wine Witch is not calling so much anymore. Ya I will get a tiny craving every now and then but it leaves quickly. Except Sunday was a little more difficult. The weather was nice I did a lot of spring cleaning and cleaned out some of my flower beds (mind you I have not done in YEARS). Well I thought when the DH got off work we could take a ride up country and take the dogs for a run (them not me, I have not come that far yet). I was planning to make a wonderful dinner of hot dogs and potato salad. Well the closer it was time for DH to get off the more I was wanting to have a glass of wine and enjoy the nice weather. Going for rides previously always entailed drinking so I quickly changed my mind and we just cooked the hot dogs on the BBQ. It was nice and the nagging WW was defeated and I enjoyed the rest of the evening.
- My moods are much more consistent now. If I am cranky, I am cranky and know why (well sometimes, I am still a woman). But I feel I am on an even kilter most nights. DH did tell my DS the other night that I am much more enjoyable to be around and don't get so ornery anymore so I guess that is a plus!!
- Like said in previous post, my anxiety is better by tenfold. Ya I am still nervous, but nothing like I was before. I can't remember if I discussed this or not, but Dear Hubs and I went shopping out of town a couple weekends ago and normal on the interstate I have my head ducked down most of the trip and freaking out grabbing DH and stressing him out. But oddly this trip I was actually able to watch us travel down the road. Don't get me wrong we did pass a semi at one point and I had to turn my head, but nothing like I use to be.
- Weight... I have only lost 6 pounds. But considering I have substituted the drink for sweets I feel pretty good about it. I never ate sweets before because I had to save the calories to partake by cup. I have to say a chocolate granola bar or a Reese's cup isn't so bad for me at this point.
- As I said I only lost 6 pounds but my face does look much better if I say so myself. My jowls are less prominent that is for sure. My eyes are defiantly not as poofy. I don't look like I just got out of bed all day long!! I have even been taking "selfies" to show my progress. I normally do not see the good, but I can see the difference is positive.
- Shakes are nonexistent. Before I would roll myself out of bed and the hubs would have breakfast done. As I pour our orange juice I could barely hit the glass. But in all honesty I didn't think it was from drinking. I have always been a shakey person but this was horrible. I chalked it up to being hungry as they seemed to get better after I would eat. No I did not drink in the morning so it never registered it was withdrawals already since I was probably still drunk or way hung over.
PS.... I have also saved over $450. Unfortunately I don't notice it my checkbook as drinking was not a budgeted expense. I seem to transfer money from saving more now which is very agitating but I think it is because I am actually dealing with life now and I am balancing my checkbook weekly instead of hoping all is good until payday
